I’m a dad, at least I was before I alienated, and was alienated from, my two kids.
I take responsibility for my actions, and recognize my misguided ex-wife’s need to amplify those actions through lies, exaggeration, and embellishment.
I live with it because I don’t see my kids right now. And it sucks.
This blog serves at least 3 purposes – and I may add more as I go.
- Cataloging what happened from the beginning, a trail of life, issues, efforts, and results from the beginning. Without judgment, but definitely through my lens of interpretation & sentiment. Hopefully serves as a lesson to some, a warning to others, and a motivation for many.
- A story for my kids, should they ever have the opportunity or desire to read this. Something that explains how much I love them. How much I wish things were different. My truths. My perspective. What I hope they get from these writings is how much this sucks for me inside, however much the outside may be smiling. And how I want things to be different. Better. And how I am hopefully working towards that goal.
- It’s cathartic. Yes, there’s a bit of selfishness here, probably far more than I like, and far less than my ex considers me to have. I’m writing this for me, for all the reasons above, but also for myself. Because I need this outlet, and it may even help me better come to terms with where I am. In life. And with my kids.